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These are my ramblings in an attempt try and understand my Dissociative Identity Disorder. Thank you for reading my blog and I hope that together we can come to a better understanding of the human mind. If you have any questions or comments you are more than welcome to add them to my blog, or to email me. I would love to hear from you.

12 July, 2015

Get Away

I want to scream so loud at people today. I want to scream and yell at the ones who made me this way. Life never makes sense, we take one step forward and 5 steps back. It's too fucking hard. We have just found out there is no one in this whole country who can help us with our level of abuse. There are millions of people out there like us and no one who can help. There are also millions of abusers out there, still doing their shit to people and no one who can deal with it all. Today feels hopeless. I just want to run away and get away from it all, but no matter where i go i can never get away from us and the truth.

Danny and Me!

Hi my name is Daniel, and I like to help people. I like to be a bit like a super hero and swoop in and save people from what they are going through. I don't really get why we have to let people do it for themselves sometimes and I just want to make it better. I just want to fix it. people need me and they need my help. I am 13 and I want to feel safe and for others to be safe too. I want to try so hard to help them. I don't care if I get cold or I don't sleep, that's not important to me. I just want to help and make it better. I am alone and that's OK, but people need me and I need them too. I need to save them so there will be good in the world. There has to be good in the world.

Hi my name is Danny and I am 12, I like to ride bikes and play with cars, I would like to be a mechanic some day. I don't like children or toys they are for little kids and I am a man now. lol hehehehe. I have a personality and I want to be free. But I can't because I am stuck in here where the girls are, and with her ( the body).
I like this face because it is funny.

04 July, 2015

So Tired

So much has happened lately, its exhausting. Miss 16 has moved out after breaking up with Mr 16. The house seems emptier without her but also calmer. I miss the female company but I know it is easier for my son to get over the relationship this way.
Mr 16 is having mental health challenges himself and we are spending time at the hospital and constantly watching him to make sure he is ok.
Diamonds is fighting her own demons and we worry constantly about how she/they are going. We are exhausted, there seems no escape from this all and we are finding ourselves feeling hopeless. Like life will never change and we will spend the rest of it fighting to survive. We feel so alone. I am tired of this life and really struggling to keep going. We need to work hard to find something we can enjoy. Its not easy. I am so tired.